i don't even know where to begin. we've started dts, i'm taking a norwegian course two nights a week, one of my best friends just had a baby (matteo), we just finished a wilderness trip. so much is happening, so quickly.two of the girls from the outreach to botswana came back to skien to visit. it was so good to see them. we had a little team reunion and watched a video of the outreach. reminiscing really made me begin to think. i had a very difficult time on the trip and afterwards i swore i would not go on outreach this next year. the team was good, the ministry was good, everything exceeded expectations, but in my mind i was done for a while. i didn't think i could do it again. this morning i sat out on a large rock jutting out into a lake and thought... a lot. i began reading this: "when God made his promise to Abraham, since there was no one greater for him to swear by, he swore by himself, saying, 'I will surely bless you and give you many descendants. and so after waiting patiently, Abraham received what was promised... we have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. it enters the inner sanctuary behind the curtain, where Jesus who went before us, has entered on our behalf..." Hebrews 6.13-15,19-20a
i knew God was speaking as i read this and also knew He meant a couple others to see these verses. as i began reading these verses to them, i just began crying. Abraham waited patiently. he didn't just wait... he waited patiently. there is hope because God has sworn and promised. the hope of this is an anchor for the soul. i need an anchor for my soul. everything changes so quickly and i have so little control over what really happens in my life and i need those promises from God. He redeemed my doubts during outreach, doubts that i could be used in weakness. because of Him i have hope. that overwhelms my every thought. wait patiently for Him to do His work. hope.
